The howling wind burned harder than any heater I had ever been near. I walked into the street as the eyes crawled around me. My thoughts drowned within the seas of screams and mumbling voices. "God why me? What did I ever do?" I thought as I kneeled down on the frozen black asphalt.
The voices resonated in every corner of my mind as the pounding began again. I screamed to silence the screams but there didn't do anything to them. They laughed, screamed, and mumbled louder as if they were gods. I laid there on the asphalt with my head to the ground and banged on the ground. I sobbed and then a shadow casted its presence over my being. I glanced up to see what casted such a shadow and it was my father.
"Dad is that really you?" I reached out to him.
He dissolved within my hands. I tried my best to grip his hand as he faded into the darkness. I woke from my nightmare, sweat drenched, and my heart raced. With every heartbeat, it roared as if it was a Nascar tournament. I peered over to see if James was lying next to me. He was on the other side of the bed. He looked so peaceful like the angel he has been ever since what happened. James hadn't left my side since that night. He turned over and felt the cold sweat of my body. His eyes exploded open as he rose.
"Are you ok babe?" He stared into my troubled light brown eyes.
"It's nothing baby just another nightmare…that's all." I said as he wrapped his strong arms around me.
I breathed heavily for a sign of relief but he knew I was troubled. I couldn't fool him for nothing. He saw everything when he stared into my eyes. He caressed my body as he placed my head on his chest. He stroked my head, it calmed my nerves, and I knew he was trying to erase away these memories. The beat of my heart froze and a small smile crept on my face. I knew he cared about me. My mind and heart was still troubled over that dark night and why my father kept appearing in my dreams. These were among the many of thoughts speeding through my mind.
"I can't keep asking God why." I parted my lips to break the silence.
He loosened his embrace lightly. He prepared for words to speak. I searched for the right words within his mind. I sensed that as I observed his face. I saw his eyes watered with the love and pain. He knew this struggle within me was deeper than he could handle. He tried his best to assist with the issue that I faced.
"Baby all I know is we will find whoever did this to you" His words scorned with pain and anger. I had never experienced such an emotion from him. He wasn't the same guy that I thought I knew so well.
"He will pay for his mistake and I wouldn't let anything happen to you" I witnessed his cold, loving tears strike my face.
"We will." I parted my lips and held him tightly. I attempted to ease his mind as well as mine. It seemed as though it were work but then something crossed my mind. I remembered a scar on the guy's face above his left eye and that I came to during it. He knocked me aside my skull with the lamp. I heard his voice clearly now and his voice was deep and husky. The aroma of Black & Mild I could taste it and I smelt with his every kiss and presence. He invaded every facet of my mouth and abused my nose. I felt everything all over again as my body began to tremble. I burned of the pressure of his dick vandalizing every inch of my wall.
"Don't worry daddy going to take care…" These were the last words I could hear as I slipped out of consciousness.
"Baby, baby, are you ok?" James screamed as he tried to get me to stop shaking.
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